28 August 2009

"Mind your Business"

Wonder why I let all those happy moments pass… Not an inkling of memory of those pretty moments did I log… and now again, my blog bears a horrendously depressing post…

Let me begin on some note of positivity.. I sang in Aadhavan… Yeah, Surya-Nayanthara starrer… Harris Jeyraj music.. My first big break…. Feels good. My parents smiled with their eyes for the first time…..

Those same eyes turned horror stricken y’day…. It’s one of those days you don’t have any control over your emotions… Long tiring stressful annoying week that has past and you’re in the threshold of insanity…

Got back home… Irritation and anger ignited when on the first glimpse I saw some things in my room moved around… Now that can be the biggest stress giving thing for me. I hate it when people mess/clean my room or move any object by even an inch when I’m not around. It disturbs me oh so much….
I screamed at mum for doing that and demanded the room to myself for a bit… I love savoring my space by myself in my room when I just enter home from anywhere…. Mum and I clearly had a misunderstanding and we were barking at each other…

Dad who was sitting comfortably in the living room stormed out of there all disturbed and demanded with all his might to know what went wrong…. The irritated, fuming freak that I already was.. dint think a split second and screamed back… Couple of phrases I never thought I’d ever have the guts to use on dad…..
Was there like a fiend controlling my tongue? I’ve no no no clue….

I feel like chopping off my tongue for being such a bitch…. I want to beg for forgiveness….

I fear there ain’t no room for forgiveness this time around…