19 March 2008

21 years...

I think God has just decided to bless me more and more, as he does a plus one to my age, every year…

No expectations, just a simple day, was all I wanted… A day with my dearest ones… Happy and smiling…

12am to 2am was like two hours of continuous smiles and thank you’s from my end… thoroughly excited and refreshed with every one who called in to wish me…

V boy drove down at 12.30 and mommy was surprisingly nice enough to let me go downstairs to see him. I had the prettiest half an hour, ever… and certainly, more than I’d ever have asked for. It was like a fantasy. I couldn’t believe my day actually began with V’s wishes, that too, in person!

Distance is NO bar for a relationship… Shooti, my nri singaporee friend sent me an email. I choose not to even write about it. But it was something that made my emotions flow criss-cross in an icily numb state of mind… I just wished my birthday was over right then, cos’ I’d already had some very unexpectedly heavenly moments…

Woke up this morning, to many more pretty calls and more from ma, pa and bro… Finally got out of my bed, feeling anew. Refreshed and adorned myself in pretty clothes and headed to meet the Lord. I could actually see Him smiling and me and saying “Rock on” :) He showed me a thumbs up as well! :) The priest laid my flowers at His feet and I just sat right there, thanking Him for all that He has given me in 21 years of my life…

Sanju boy called in alas, after college and we went to Barbeque Nation in T Nagar. Sir loved the place and we had a lovely time together, catching up on times… Also recollecting the years we’ve spent together and how life has changed… We were soon joined by Divu who instantly spread her charisma and changed the tone of the afternoon to a very chirpy, bubbly, high energy one. A birthday card that has the sweetest words etched on it, a cherubic portrait of the two of us framed to exactness that any beholder would cast eyes on and some very pretty kurtas, all wrapped with loads of love and hugs was what she bequeathed me with right then. Little did I know, there was more to come…

We got back home all stuffed with food and lots of burp. That’s ideally what you would call a “pig out” session cos’ that’s how much we ate. We relaxed for a while, we had a megha-song-listening session plus a picture-seeing session coupled with conversation… We then set out for some coffee. Strangely Divu wanted to go to “cotton world” to “check out” some clothes… So we did that and then went to Movenpick and I see V boy, Clydo and Michelle right there!! I assumed it was coincidence that they were there too! And soon beat my head to realize that this was a lil surprise party that they threw for me!!! (Courtesy: Clyde and Divya. **hugs**) Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! I was just so lost and it took a while to sink in that it’s my birthday and I’m right there with my dearest people!! V boy asked me to turn around and I see a huge box out there, as tall as me. “Open it, that’s your gift”, he said. It was a box that can probably fit in a refrigerator in it!
I open that big thing, just to find my clone in it. A bigger clone. A lifesize teddy bear. Like really HUGE. I lost it! It was the most unexpected thing ever. It’s something I’d take care of more than I might even care for my own child. Here’s what my new family member looks like:


All of us went to Tangerine from there… Sanju couldn’t join us, unfortunately. Raka and Rahul joined us out there. We had a lovely time at dinner. Tripping on each other, roaring and laughing! That’s all we did. Listening to Beatles in the background was a treat as well. It was then time for birthday cake! Can anything ever beat the joy of cutting a birthday cake?! Pretty moments…

Finally bid bye to all… V boy dropped Divu, Teddy bear and me home…

My irreplaceable lil brother who had been counting every minute welcomed me back home with open arms. My cousin Murali and ma lit up and gave me their best smiles. Bro had bought me a lovely birthday cake as well. ‘Fooo’ I blew the candles and cut my birthday cake and sweetened their tongues.

Divu and I then got back to my room… Found a courier from Sangee who’d sent it all the way from Hyderabad. I choked for I couldn’t take surprises anymore. Utterly touched, I opened each one of my gifts and cherished them all…

I don’t know. I’ve never thought I deserved any of this. To be loved is the best gift any human being can ever get. I’ve been showered bountifully with all the love of God through all my wonderful people.

Rohan, Prasad – thanks for the innumerable sms’s all through the day. You were incredibly sweet…

To EACH and EVERY ONE of you who remembered me today… Thanks a bunch. You really made my day…. I love you all so much. I cant cry more…



Happy tears…
Cheers,
Me

08 March 2008

Profound Musings…

Life goes around in circles… Ups and downs are inevitable in anyone’s life. It’s amazing how you can laugh your lungs out at one particular time of the day and have the most depressing moment with even just a phone call, a minute or two after that wonderful laugh! Unpredictable, yet that’s how it is…

So many wonderful people have been a part of my life, all through these 20 years… and as I’m nearing completion of 21 years, I realize I’ve never really stopped by to thank anyone or tell them how special they are and how pretty they’ve made my life…

Even though I hate to admit, my happiness/sorrow depends to a large extent on incidents, people in my life. Yeah, that’s pretty much how it is for all of us, but I guess I’m the one notch extra dependant on my friends, family. You know what I’m talking about – emotional attachment. Finding peace by myself, just being with myself is not so easy for me. I prefer a bunch of people around me all the time. Nothing can replace moments of togetherness and fun a bunch of nice friends share – be it over a cup of coffee or a plate full of yummy food. I would give up lone space to group fun, any day…

My life hasn’t changed around too much, at least over the last 2 years. But I see rampant change in my social circle – each one in different parts of the globe, doing different things. Strange that I’m more connected to those outside the city than those inside! And somehow I don’t feel like I’m doing enough to make any of these wonderful people feel that they really mean the world to me…

I know I’m just going to complete 21 years of age and that isn’t much. But I find myself going on my knees and pleading for more time cos’ things are changing a little too fast. My extra emotional conversation with my mom made me realize I’m not even going to have the privilege of living with my parents under one roof for say more than 2-3 yeas from now. God knows work or marriage is going to take me.

Like I was mentioning before, most of my extra good friends have already left the city and are making their own lives as they have shaped destiny… Some of my other friends are on their way outside, to make themselves better lives. Here I am, struggling all by myself. I don’t have the least of willingness to let anyone go. I just want everything to be just as pretty as it used to be. All I want is more and more moments of togetherness and laughter. Seemingly, I can do that only through the e-world or the phone-world now. Thanks to technology, I can at least do that!

Anyways, on that note here I am, adopting another media of technology – blogging, to tell you all lovely people out there, that I miss you and I’m going to miss you more. Thanks for making my life so inevitably pretty and meaningful all along. Thanks for making me what I am. Thanks for just being there, always…

I love you all – family, friends…


**wailing ecstatically; joy meets sorrow**